||[Jun. 20th, 2005|11:43 am]
|[||My Frickin Feelings That Mean Nothing
Hiya guys, I'm back!
Ha sorry. Been a while, eh? Our computer had a virus, so I've been computerless for a while. And I tend to not update for a while, and *cough*forgetaboutmylj*Cough*.
Everything's alright around here. My dad's an ass today, but he's been decent recently. Saturday was the first performance of The three little pigs. It was alright, I guess - I, personally, think I messed up and could of done so much better, but Mr. Warren (Rachel's dad) and my mother says I was 'wonderful', so... *shrugs slightly*
My mother has alot of work to do on the side for Elance, but she doesn't seem to be getting to it, which kinda pisses me off, because she needs to start working on it, but whatever, it's her rating.
My dad's been doing really well on Chemo. He'll get real tired for about a day, but thats it. His back has a tan/sunburn-like mark from Radiation, and he says it feels warm, and it's peeling a little, but it's supposed to be normal, because he gets Radiation every day.
Uuuugh my stomach hurts.... uh, sorry... randomness of me.
I've been doing alright. I get my moments when I feel hopeless, worthless, suicidal, all of that, but that's just how I am. I guess I kind of just... accept my major mood swings anymore. They piss me off, which makes me depressed, but eh - life goes on.
I've been feeling an ongo sickness, my throat been hurting, swollen glands, tiredness, sore, runny nose, wattery eyes, it's been going on for a couple weeks, just general sickness. It sucks, but... *shrugs* Nothing I can do about it. Just have to wait until it passes or I die (lol).
I've also been more emotional the past month or so. If I read a real sad story, then I'll be really really sad for the next day or so, because I get so... into the charictor, that I feel the pain, hurt, whatever the person's feeling, you know? Ok, maybe you don't, and I'm weird, but whatever.
I've also been REALLY tired lately, it just kind of washes over me. I've always been tired, like, I never had a lot of energy, but anymore I'm just to the point of after going out somewhere, grocrey shopping or something, that I have to sit and rest for a little while. It's horrible - I hate it. :(
Um.. thats all for now. I'm going to go on quizilla.. *shrugs a little*
Ugh. I feel like crap... sorry again lol...